college, college life, Friends, life, New Blog

I Trust too Easily (gettin’ personal)

16228912_104298226736015_3621797787294760960_n

All my life, I have held people to a high standard. I have expected more than I’ve been given. I’ve always thought that if I had a close friendship with someone, they would never hurt or leave me. I had always assumed that if someone who meant a lot to me told me how they felt and promised it was true, then it must be true. But people aren’t always the way you expect them to be. You may think you know someone, but that doesn’t mean they won’t break your heart.

There are so many people I will never stop caring about who just don’t seem to care about me anymore. I lost or grew apart from so many friends after starting college. I got my heart broken by the boy who promised me forever, rumors were spread around my hometown about me by one of my closest girl friends, one of the town bums tried to get revenge on me for not going out with him or giving him what he wanted, people I had hung out with everyday in school stopped talking to me, and one of my very own best friends pretty much cut me out of her life. All of these people meant something to me. They still do.

Continue reading “I Trust too Easily (gettin’ personal)”

college, college life, life, New Blog, school, tips

Presentation Tips: How Not to Have a Heart Attack In Front of Everyone

please don't make me talk

I dread giving presentations. It’s hard enough talking to one person I’m not too familiar with, so the very thought of speaking in front of a whole class makes me want to drop out and move immediately. Actually…all the more reason to follow my secret dream of getting done with college as quickly as possible and adopting a bunch of cats. Sounds good to me.

But seriously, presentations can’t be avoided. You can go months without doing one, but sooner or later, your teacher will tell you that a required presentation is coming, and one day…it’ll creep up on you and all the cats in the world won’t be able to save you.

I had to present a PowerPoint (about my other blog funny enough) in front of my Digital Portfolio and Career Readiness class yesterday. Thirteen students and my professor. I spent half the day being nervous (class was at 2:30). When my turn finally came to go up, I was a little bit shaky and I could already feel the sweat on my back starting to form. Throughout my presentation, I said “so” and stuttered too many times, probably didn’t make enough eye-contact, and had a line of sweat on my forehead. Obviously I’m super qualified to give tips on this. Ha.

Continue reading “Presentation Tips: How Not to Have a Heart Attack In Front of Everyone”

college, Friends, New Blog

Conversation is Hard/New Friends

mini golf day sunset with dog

Making friends can be difficult. For me, it’s easiest to focus on building a friendship with one person at a time.

Right now, I have a new friend who I’m just starting to hang out with. We went to the observatory on campus together, and today I’m meeting her in the cafe to do homework. I’m actually kind of nervous.

Continue reading “Conversation is Hard/New Friends”

college, college life, New Blog, party

College Life: My First Party

dance partyCollege is…interesting. I’ve always seen college students in movies and tv shows partying. There’s been more emphasis on the parties than any other part really-other than when my teachers in high school gave those “your professors won’t let you get away with that in college” lectures (which I have not had any issue with yet by the way). But other than generally showing students outside of class and never getting work done, the movies aren’t that wrong. There are parties every weekend-starting on Thursday.

I don’t party. I don’t even do partying activities. My idea of a party is eating junk food and watching movies with my cousin/best friend or binge-watching a show with friends on Netflix. I went to my first party ever here in college on February 4th (not including birthdays). I’ll describe that night’s experience:

Continue reading “College Life: My First Party”

Hello, New Blog

Hello. Here’s Why I’m Starting This…

Hi there.

If anyone actually sees this, welcome to my blog!

I’m not expecting a lot of reads or anything, but I thought I could use a place to put some of my thoughts. I’m a shy person who has a hard time talking to people unless I’m close to them, but I aspire to be a good person. People seem to think that because I don’t say much, there’s not much on my mind of importance, or maybe even that I don’t want to talk to anyone. That couldn’t be further from true. I’m always thinking, and I want to connect with other people. My thoughts are deep. I would love to write some of them out and share my stories and encounters. So…if you do see this and my future posts, enjoy.